Someone once said to me, "I know you want to help but God just isn't for everyone." I thought to myself... I used to believe that. Not only did I feel that way, but I vocally, loudly made it known... Continue Reading →
If you could see my heart... You would see deep sorrow and pain... You would see enough heartache to cry tears and fill an ocean... You would see feelings of betrayal, loneliness, of being forgotten. You would see a child,... Continue Reading →
Being Christian shouldn't be a condemning thing to the general public, but I guess even the synagogue leaders condemned Jesus... I look back on the day's I used to actively proclaim that God wasn't real... That religion was a big... Continue Reading →
The more you spend time with someone, the less you see just the good and the more you see the flaws and mistakes. Or, for some, the more you see your assumptions of them were wrong... This is in part... Continue Reading →
I didn't want to look like I was singing because I thought I was good. I didn't want to look like I wanted the spotlight. I didn't want to look like I thought I was better. I didn't want to... Continue Reading →
When I moved to Visalia, I left everyone and everything behind me. 5.5 years of a love became broken and time wasted. My closest family member was in turmoil. My dogs, whom I still miss and love deeply to this... Continue Reading →
If anyone knew me entirely... they'd walk away. At least, that's another lie I've embraced. If anyone took the time to know all the crazy... the darkness... the light... the good things and the bad... if they knew everything, I'd be too intense to even be around. So, I walk muffled and stuffed into whatever sized box seems appropriate for the time. But here is a truth I've come to know and understand... what the world and all of these people think... doesn't matter. I can change myself, my choices, my circumstances. I can be happy. Deserving love and things is not something you need to be born into, it's something adequately and openly available... we just have to give it a chance.
Our love has two directions. It goes out and it comes in. God, who is love, never leaves and comes back... Rather, God is so big and so powerful that He quite literally goes and comes at the very same time. So, when you know Him and you look for Him, it's actually something that is happening on a constant basis. Unless, you disallow Him altogether. Without God, giving and receiving love is completely imbalanced.
Because of this power, I am not that person anymore. But God has been teaching me baby steps... It's not a snap your fingers kind of process for all of us. In fact, I honestly don't believe God even wants that for me. He wants to walk with me through every single moment of healing.
Rescued Hope 