Years ago I had this conversation with an old friend about how she'd been seeing multiples of numbers all the time. Someone in the same room jumped into the conversation explaining that humans were instinctively seeking patterns as a natural... Continue Reading →
I cannot promise tomorrow for anyone… I cannot promise a painless day or that a relationship will last or even that you'll breathe another day. But I can stand as a living testimony that despite the storms and pains of... Continue Reading →
Recently, I found myself in a position that seemed as though I stood on the edge of nearly not okay. It scared me because I remember those days when I wasn't. Yet, every storm, since Jesus became more than an... Continue Reading →
I find myself terrible at remembering names or other details. My memory sort of sucks. But in life, when circumstances arise that feel tough, scary, or hard to handle, a small, still voice whispers things like, "be still... let me fight this battle," (Exodus 14:14) or, "I'll never give you more than you can handle, stand firm, persevere, and have hope..." (1 Corinthians 10:13, 15:58, 16:13, & James 1:2-4).
But there is something about this Love; something that changes in you when you come to truly understand it. This is a Love you can't escape, sabotage, or destroy. You can HATE Him... And He will STILL LOVE you. The moment I realized He's there and He's not going away... I can't avoid it and I cling to Him.
From my point of view, I was treating life like a math problem. I was weighing outcomes that hadn't even presented themselves as possibilities. I was calculating what could be the worst to happen, the best to happen, and everything in between. Oblivious to how tortured I was, I thought I knew everything and I literally knew nothing.
It's as though I'm learning His language and the more we get to talking, the more I wanna know.
When I moved to Visalia, I left everyone and everything behind me. 5.5 years of a love became broken and time wasted. My closest family member was in turmoil. My dogs, whom I still miss and love deeply to this... Continue Reading →
If anyone knew me entirely... they'd walk away. At least, that's another lie I've embraced. If anyone took the time to know all the crazy... the darkness... the light... the good things and the bad... if they knew everything, I'd be too intense to even be around. So, I walk muffled and stuffed into whatever sized box seems appropriate for the time.
But here is a truth I've come to know and understand... what the world and all of these people think... doesn't matter. I can change myself, my choices, my circumstances. I can be happy. Deserving love and things is not something you need to be born into, it's something adequately and openly available... we just have to give it a chance.
Rescued Hope 