One day last year, I had this realization… I felt kind of numb, and a voice in the back of my mind whispered, "something's wrong with you… You don't care enough… You're losing your empathy…" and it just hit me... Continue Reading →
Something I said before was, “you made me feel (insert emotion here)…” and someone once responded with, “I can’t make you feel…” At first, I found myself offended by their lack of acknowledging my feelings. I wanted to defend myself... Continue Reading →
1 Corinthians 13:4-8 NIV Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
But there is something about this Love; something that changes in you when you come to truly understand it. This is a Love you can't escape, sabotage, or destroy. You can HATE Him... And He will STILL LOVE you. The moment I realized He's there and He's not going away... I can't avoid it and I cling to Him.
It's as though I'm learning His language and the more we get to talking, the more I wanna know.
If anyone knew me entirely... they'd walk away. At least, that's another lie I've embraced. If anyone took the time to know all the crazy... the darkness... the light... the good things and the bad... if they knew everything, I'd be too intense to even be around. So, I walk muffled and stuffed into whatever sized box seems appropriate for the time.
But here is a truth I've come to know and understand... what the world and all of these people think... doesn't matter. I can change myself, my choices, my circumstances. I can be happy. Deserving love and things is not something you need to be born into, it's something adequately and openly available... we just have to give it a chance.
Our love has two directions. It goes out and it comes in. God, who is love, never leaves and comes back... Rather, God is so big and so powerful that He quite literally goes and comes at the very same time. So, when you know Him and you look for Him, it's actually something that is happening on a constant basis. Unless, you disallow Him altogether.
Without God, giving and receiving love is completely imbalanced.
Because of this power, I am not that person anymore. But God has been teaching me baby steps... It's not a snap your fingers kind of process for all of us. In fact, I honestly don't believe God even wants that for me. He wants to walk with me through every single moment of healing.
It was a beautiful day... Full of laughter and memories of where we used to be. Reminders of how thankful I am to have found my savior. I was full. I was happy. I was grateful. I tried to spread... Continue Reading →
Rescued Hope 