Something I said before was, “you made me feel (insert emotion here)…” and someone once responded with, “I can’t make you feel…” At first, I found myself offended by their lack of acknowledging my feelings. I wanted to defend myself... Continue Reading →
I’ve got these thoughts rolling around in my mind. I’ve been watching this show that showcases a manipulative culture where men have dominated over women assuming that they would naturally, courageously fight back against their sexual motives claiming sex was... Continue Reading →
I cannot promise tomorrow for anyone… I cannot promise a painless day or that a relationship will last or even that you'll breathe another day. But I can stand as a living testimony that despite the storms and pains of... Continue Reading →
I find myself terrible at remembering names or other details. My memory sort of sucks. But in life, when circumstances arise that feel tough, scary, or hard to handle, a small, still voice whispers things like, "be still... let me fight this battle," (Exodus 14:14) or, "I'll never give you more than you can handle, stand firm, persevere, and have hope..." (1 Corinthians 10:13, 15:58, 16:13, & James 1:2-4).
But there is something about this Love; something that changes in you when you come to truly understand it. This is a Love you can't escape, sabotage, or destroy. You can HATE Him... And He will STILL LOVE you. The moment I realized He's there and He's not going away... I can't avoid it and I cling to Him.
From my point of view, I was treating life like a math problem. I was weighing outcomes that hadn't even presented themselves as possibilities. I was calculating what could be the worst to happen, the best to happen, and everything in between. Oblivious to how tortured I was, I thought I knew everything and I literally knew nothing.
It's as though I'm learning His language and the more we get to talking, the more I wanna know.
If anyone knew me entirely... they'd walk away. At least, that's another lie I've embraced. If anyone took the time to know all the crazy... the darkness... the light... the good things and the bad... if they knew everything, I'd be too intense to even be around. So, I walk muffled and stuffed into whatever sized box seems appropriate for the time.
But here is a truth I've come to know and understand... what the world and all of these people think... doesn't matter. I can change myself, my choices, my circumstances. I can be happy. Deserving love and things is not something you need to be born into, it's something adequately and openly available... we just have to give it a chance.
Our love has two directions. It goes out and it comes in. God, who is love, never leaves and comes back... Rather, God is so big and so powerful that He quite literally goes and comes at the very same time. So, when you know Him and you look for Him, it's actually something that is happening on a constant basis. Unless, you disallow Him altogether.
Without God, giving and receiving love is completely imbalanced.
Rescued Hope 