If anyone knew me entirely... they'd walk away. At least, that's another lie I've embraced. If anyone took the time to know all the crazy... the darkness... the light... the good things and the bad... if they knew everything, I'd be too intense to even be around. So, I walk muffled and stuffed into whatever sized box seems appropriate for the time. But here is a truth I've come to know and understand... what the world and all of these people think... doesn't matter. I can change myself, my choices, my circumstances. I can be happy. Deserving love and things is not something you need to be born into, it's something adequately and openly available... we just have to give it a chance.
Our love has two directions. It goes out and it comes in. God, who is love, never leaves and comes back... Rather, God is so big and so powerful that He quite literally goes and comes at the very same time. So, when you know Him and you look for Him, it's actually something that is happening on a constant basis. Unless, you disallow Him altogether. Without God, giving and receiving love is completely imbalanced.
Because of this power, I am not that person anymore. But God has been teaching me baby steps... It's not a snap your fingers kind of process for all of us. In fact, I honestly don't believe God even wants that for me. He wants to walk with me through every single moment of healing.
It was a beautiful day... Full of laughter and memories of where we used to be. Reminders of how thankful I am to have found my savior. I was full. I was happy. I was grateful. I tried to spread... Continue Reading →
Here is the issue with the world of mental disorders. If you've never experienced it yourself, you will think we are crazy or lazy... but you'll not really be sure and when you ask, we tend to just say, "I'm just tired." Yet the truth is we're not just tired, we're overwhelmed, exhausted, and teeter on the edge of giving up. We are at war, not just with life, but with ourselves...
Jesus once met someone like me. She was afraid to be honest around people. She hid from her shame.
You could be a fisherman, a Samaritan, a Pharisee, a tax collector, a prostitute... you can be a sinner. But He will STILL have died for you and He will STILL have shed His blood for you and you, sinner, are STILL forgiven and loved.
Jesus isn't all about JOY alone... He knows that growth is hard. He knows that division between people is painful. He didn't die so that you could avoid the reality of our world and the souls lost within it. He died to give you a courageous life... so that you could be free in His love and show those who can't otherwise see Him that He is a reality.
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