One day last year, I had this realization… I felt kind of numb, and a voice in the back of my mind whispered, "something's wrong with you… You don't care enough… You're losing your empathy…" and it just hit me... Continue Reading →
Something I said before was, “you made me feel (insert emotion here)…” and someone once responded with, “I can’t make you feel…” At first, I found myself offended by their lack of acknowledging my feelings. I wanted to defend myself... Continue Reading →
I’ve got these thoughts rolling around in my mind. I’ve been watching this show that showcases a manipulative culture where men have dominated over women assuming that they would naturally, courageously fight back against their sexual motives claiming sex was... Continue Reading →
1 Corinthians 13:4-8 NIV Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
I find myself terrible at remembering names or other details. My memory sort of sucks. But in life, when circumstances arise that feel tough, scary, or hard to handle, a small, still voice whispers things like, "be still... let me fight this battle," (Exodus 14:14) or, "I'll never give you more than you can handle, stand firm, persevere, and have hope..." (1 Corinthians 10:13, 15:58, 16:13, & James 1:2-4).
From my point of view, I was treating life like a math problem. I was weighing outcomes that hadn't even presented themselves as possibilities. I was calculating what could be the worst to happen, the best to happen, and everything in between. Oblivious to how tortured I was, I thought I knew everything and I literally knew nothing.
It's as though I'm learning His language and the more we get to talking, the more I wanna know.
Our love has two directions. It goes out and it comes in. God, who is love, never leaves and comes back... Rather, God is so big and so powerful that He quite literally goes and comes at the very same time. So, when you know Him and you look for Him, it's actually something that is happening on a constant basis. Unless, you disallow Him altogether.
Without God, giving and receiving love is completely imbalanced.
Because of this power, I am not that person anymore. But God has been teaching me baby steps... It's not a snap your fingers kind of process for all of us. In fact, I honestly don't believe God even wants that for me. He wants to walk with me through every single moment of healing.
Rescued Hope 